Decision time!!

Dear one, life is a beautiful dance of choices. With every step, we shape our path, and each decision leaves its gentle fragrance on time.

The choices we make today weave the joy or sorrow of tomorrow—not just for ourselves but for those we love and those yet to come. When challenges arise, our hearts may tremble with doubt. In those moments, choosing our way forward can feel like stepping into a storm, where emotions swirl like restless winds. But tell me, dear soul, can one truly taste the sweetness of fruit while running? Obviously the answer is a big NO, for its flavor is best enjoyed in stillness.

So, can a restless heart truly find the right path? What do you feel?

When we feel peace within and make choices from a calm heart, a future full of harmony unfolds. But when decisions are made in haste, merely to quiet the storm inside, they plant the seeds of sorrow yet to bloom. Is this not so? Do not simply hear my words—let them rest in your heart, and discover the truth within yourself. Hare Krishna!!

Independence in Relationships!!

Ah, dear soul, when two hearts unite, they often weave invisible boundaries, thinking they protect their love. But tell me, have you ever wondered about these walls we build? If we look closely at our relationships, we see how these limitations arise from our own fears and insecurities. And when someone, without knowing, steps beyond these lines, our hearts tremble with anger. But what is the essence of these boundaries? Have you ever paused to think about this?

When we impose such limits, we leave no space for the other soul to breathe and dance freely. We become entangled in our own rigidness, forgetting the beauty of independence that each heart craves. And when we deny another's freedom, their heart feels the weight of sadness, and when they break these walls, our hearts ignite with frustration. Is it not so?

But, my beloved, if we learn to cherish and honor each other's independence, what purpose do these walls serve? If acceptance is the foundation upon which love stands, then is not independence the soul that breathes life into it? So, close your eyes, feel the whisper of this truth in your heart, and let your heart embrace this truth. Hare Krishna!!

acceptance in relationship!!

From the dawn of humanity, a timeless question has lingered in our hearts: How can we nurture boundless happiness and ease the shadows of sadness in our relationships? Do all your relationships truly fill your soul with joy? Have you ever pondered this deeply?

Our lives are woven with the threads of relationships, providing us with comfort, love and security. They are the foundation of our happiness. But why, then, do these same relationships sometimes bring us the deepest sorrow? Why do misunderstandings and conflicts often bloom where love once flourished? Have you ever paused to think about this?

When we resist embracing another's thoughts and choices, seeking instead to change them to our own, conflict takes root. The more we resist, the more discord arises. Yet, the more we embrace and accept, the more love and harmony flow into our lives. Isn't that a beautiful truth?

If we can cultivate patience, nurture a positive heart, and turn our focus inward to transform ourselves instead of seeking to change other person, would happiness in relationship remain elusive? Could it be that true love and deep connection flourish through kindness and acceptance? Take a moment, and let your heart reflect on this gentle wisdom. Hare Krishna!!

Why do I Want What I Want?

Lately, I've been wondering—why do I desire the things I do? Is it really me who wants them, or have I just been influenced by the world around me? Whether it’s a new gadget, a particular lifestyle, or even the kind of relationships I seek, I can’t help but question where these wants are coming from.

Every day, I’m bombarded with messages—social media, advertisements, conversations, trends. It’s as if the world is constantly telling me what I should value. And the more I think about it, the more I realize how much these influences shape my desires. Do I actually want this, or have I been conditioned to believe I do?

So, I’ve started to step back and ask myself: “Is this really what I want?” It’s not an easy question to answer. Sometimes, I realize I’ve been chasing things just because they seemed appealing from the outside. But when I really sit with my thoughts, I begin to see the difference between what feels authentic to me and what’s just a reflection of the world’s expectations.

The more I explore, the more I learn about myself. I try new things, engage in deeper conversations, and expose myself to different perspectives. It’s a process of trial and error, but every step brings me closer to understanding what truly matters to me.

At the end of the day, I just want to align my desires with who I really am. The world will always try to influence me, but I get to decide which influences to embrace and which to let go. And maybe, just maybe, by questioning my wants, I’ll find something even more meaningful than what I originally thought I needed.

So, next time I catch myself wanting something, I’ll take a pause and ask: “Is this truly what I desire, or is it just a reflection of the world around me?” The answer might surprise me. Cheers!!

“No One Dies Without Anyone”

We broke apart, so many times before,

But this time, the cracks feel deeper, more sure.

Yes, we held on, with a hug, with a kiss,

Yet her words lingered, a cold abyss.

“No one dies without anyone, right?”

Her message cuts sharper than the darkest night.

My dear, her voice seemed to softly say,

“Time will heal, it will take us away.”

Forget me, she pleads, with quiet grace,

A love now fading, leaving no trace.

Yet echoes of her linger in my soul,

A heart once whole, now no longer whole.

Take care of yourself, her final request,

A bittersweet note, a hollowed bequest.

And though I ache, I’ll try to abide,

Letting her go with the turning tide.

No one dies without anyone, it’s true,

But living without her feels something new.

Time will heal, or so they all say,

Yet I miss her more with every day.

that story!!

That story begins with - Once upon a time, there was a boy who dreamed of changing the world. He believed he could make a difference by using his talents—writing, photography, music, movies, philosophy, love and kindness—to inspire others. As a teenager, he was passionate about solving big problems like hunger, inequality, sadness, and freedom. He would spend hours thinking and planning ways to make these changes happen. Little by little, he took steps forward. It wasn’t easy, and progress often felt frustratingly slow. Then one day, after years of effort, something clicked. He finally found a spark of success that reignited his passion. However, it had taken him years of hard work and determination to get there. By this time, he was no longer the same dreaming teenager. As he grew older, life brought new challenges and responsibilities that required his attention.

He worked hard to meet those responsibilities, helping others and solving everyday problems. When he had free time, he still returned to the things he loved—creating, writing, and dreaming. But as the years passed, the big dream of his youth started to fade into the background. It wasn’t that he gave up; life simply took him in a different direction, one full of new demands and unexpected turns. Years went by, and one day he stopped to think about how far he had come. He looked at the world around him and realized it wasn’t the world he had dreamed of changing. Instead, it was his own personal world that had transformed. It had become something extraordinary, something he never imagined, but also something he couldn’t fully control. His teenage dreams felt distant now, like a faint echo, but they had shaped the person he had become.

In those quiet moments of reflection, he felt a mix of sadness and pride. He missed the hopeful, fearless teenager he once was, the boy who believed anything was possible. At the same time, he could see the beauty in the life he had built, even if it wasn’t what he had planned. Life had tested him. It had hurt him, challenged him, and pushed him to his limits. But through those hardships, life also shaped him into someone stronger, someone capable of standing tall in the face of adversity. Even though his journey was tough, it made him who he was.

That boy, now grown, came to a powerful realization: the dreams of his youth were not wasted, even if they hadn’t been fully achieved. The journey itself was his greatest triumph. Every lesson, every moment of impact, every step forward—even through failure—was a testament to his resilience. Though he couldn’t rewrite the past, he could embrace it. His dreams, shaped by time and tempered by reality, were still alive, guiding him forward with a strength forged in struggle.

And that boy is me!! So Cheers!!

Void!!

Experiencing the Void has been one of the most transformative periods of my life. It’s a time marked by silence, stillness, and deep reflection. Over the past few months, I’ve been confronted with powerful lessons about life, humanity, and myself. The Void has become both a challenge and an opportunity—a space where I’ve come to understand how I arrived at this point and how these moments of emptiness are shaping me into something new.

In many ways, my experience mirrors teachings from ancient Indian philosophy, where the concept of the Void, or “Shunyata”, plays a central role. Rooted in Buddhist and Hindu traditions, Shunyata refers to the emptiness or voidness of all things. It teaches that nothing possesses an inherent, independent existence. Instead, everything is interconnected and constantly changing. This understanding has helped me see the Void not as a place of despair but as a space of infinite potential—an opportunity to rebuild and grow.

Looking back, the last few months have been nothing short of a real-world lesson. Life has revealed its duality to me—the capacity of humans to both destroy and uplift one another. I’ve seen how easily words and actions can tear someone down, shattering their confidence and their sense of worth. Yet, I’ve also witnessed the incredible strength of kindness, how a single gesture or act of compassion can restore hope and remind someone of their value.

Navigating this period has been deeply personal. It’s been a time of loss, but also of immense gain. In the Void, I’ve found space to let go of the weight of the past. I’ve let go of attachments that no longer serve me, and in doing so, I’ve uncovered a sense of clarity I never thought possible. Ancient Indian teachings emphasize the importance of detachment, or “Vairagya”, which means releasing desires and the illusions of permanence. This principle has guided me in finding peace within the emptiness and seeing it as a stepping stone to transformation.

Each day, I learn something new about myself. I’ve discovered resilience I didn’t know I had and gained insight into the patterns and choices that led me here. The Void is not just a state of emptiness; it is a mirror, reflecting back the truths we often avoid. It’s a reminder that growth isn’t always about adding more but about shedding what doesn’t align with who we truly are.

This journey has also deepened my understanding of humanity. It’s taught me the importance of empathy and the profound impact we have on one another. We are interconnected, and every interaction holds the power to heal or harm. This interconnectedness, known in Hindu philosophy as “Advaita”, or non-duality, underscores that the distinctions we make between self and others are illusions. Recognizing this has changed how I approach relationships and how I move through the world. I’ve started to see the beauty in vulnerability—in allowing myself to be seen, even in moments of uncertainty.

The Void isn’t the end; it’s a beginning. It’s a place where possibilities exist, waiting to be shaped by intention and action. While it can feel daunting and unfamiliar, it is also where true transformation happens. From this space of stillness, I am rebuilding my foundation. I am learning to trust the process, to embrace uncertainty, and to find strength in the quiet moments.

If there’s one thing the Void has taught me, it’s that life is a constant cycle of destruction and creation. Every ending holds the seed of a new beginning, and every loss creates space for something greater. In Hindu philosophy, this cycle is beautifully represented by the concept of “Trimurti”—the trinity of Brahma (creation), Vishnu (preservation), and Shiva (destruction). This eternal cycle reminds me that even in the darkest times, there is light waiting to emerge. In the Void, I’ve learned to be patient with myself, to honor the process of becoming, and to believe in the potential of what comes next. This journey isn’t easy, but it’s necessary. And through it, I’ve come to realize that even in emptiness, there is infinite potential waiting to unfold. Cheers man!!

Nirvana!!

Kolkata is not just a city; for me, it is a sanctuary for the soul—a place where tradition and modernity coexist in harmony. As the sun sets over the Ganges, the city transforms before my eyes. Its golden lights shimmer on the river, and the evening hum of trams and temple prayers stirs something deep within me. The streets, alive with the aroma of frying spices and the laughter of strangers, feel like an extension of my own heartbeat.

The magic of Kolkata resides in its food, and for me, it is a gateway to my most cherished memories. Maa’s cooking has always been more than just meals; it’s a language of love that connects me to my roots. The crackle of mustard oil in the pan, the earthy aroma of macher jhol, and the indulgent richness of mutton kosa are not just tastes—they are time capsules, taking me back to Sunday lunches and familial warmth.

This city has a profound way of holding onto its elders, and I feel their wisdom in every corner. The stories they share are like bridges between generations, connecting the past with my present. When I walk down tramlines or through rickshaw-clad streets, I hear echoes of my childhood, laughter from friendships long past, and the whispers of a simpler time. Kolkata carries the weight of my nostalgia, grounding me in ways no other place can.

While I was in Tokyo, life moved at an exhilarating pace, brimming with energy and innovation. Yet, amidst all the excitement, I found myself yearning for the quieter, simpler joys I had once taken for granted. But this holiday in Kolkata changed me. It was here, in the quiet spaces of familiarity, that I found clarity. I realized what truly matters—not just where I’m going, but why I’m going there. This realization was like ‘sunyata,’ a profound emptiness filled with meaning, much like nirvana itself.

Coming back to Kolkata after years away has been overwhelming in the best way possible. Reuniting with old friends, revisiting places that once felt like home, and standing in spaces that carry so much of my history—it all feels like meeting a part of myself I had forgotten. The bittersweet joy of rekindling old bonds and walking familiar streets often leaves me teary-eyed, but these are tears of gratitude and love.

For me, Kolkata’s spirit is its most beautiful treasure. Every scent from its kitchens, every smile on its streets, and every word spoken by its elders feels like a balm to my restless soul. This city is my nirvana—a place where my memories and dreams intertwine, bridging the past and future with a timeless, everlasting joy. Cheers to life!!

Lost!!

“Hey you know once in a while you’ve got to toss out the map, lose the compass, and just wander,” I say to myself with a smirk, staring at the open world ahead. “Who says getting lost is a bad thing anyway? Maybe it’s just life’s holy way of saying, ‘Hey, you’re about to stumble onto something amazing!’”

I laugh at the thought, letting the weight of expectations slip away. “I mean, who really wants a straight, boring path when you can have twists, turns, and surprises around every corner? So, this time I’m giving me a chance to explore, to dance with uncertainty, to let the universe guide me instead of trying to steer it down.”

With a deep breath and a spark of mischief in my heart, I’m taking a step forward, ready to experience the wild, unpredictable adventure. Saying “Alright, life, surprise me—I’m all in!”

So, Cheers to 2025 and meet you on the other side of the world..!!

entry 38!

Hey, 2024,

You arrived like a whispered promise—a year brimming with hope, ambition, and dreams waiting to unfold. Little did I know you would become the year I had always longed for. Every moment, every day, felt like a chapter in a storybook written just for me. As I reflect now, my heart overflows with gratitude and emotions for the journey we shared.

I welcomed you in the most spontaneous way—sitting in a car on an open highway, screaming with joy as the clock struck midnight. The raw energy of that moment was the perfect start to a year filled with magic. From that first day, I knew I had mountains to climb and paths to forge.

One of my early decisions was stepping into a new part-time job. It wasn’t just a workplace—it became a classroom of life. This role challenged me, taught me lessons I didn’t know I needed, and, most importantly, helped me grow. That move turned out to be the first of many transformative steps this year.

Then came iOS development—a journey of discovery and expansion. I dove in headfirst, creating projects that weren’t just stepping stones but launching pads into a world where the only limit was the sky. It wasn’t easy. There were moments of doubt and exhaustion, but through persistence and belief, I found not only my capabilities but my purpose.

Another milestone was launching my personal website, primarily for blogging. This wasn’t just about sharing thoughts—it became a bridge, connecting me to strangers who became friends and rekindling old relationships that had faded over time. Among these reconnections was a dear friend who walked back into my life and, in doing so, brought warmth and healing. Their presence became one of the most cherished gifts of this year.

And then came the big moment: landing a permanent job. Years of effort culminated in this milestone, a reminder that dreams don’t just happen—they are built, one step at a time. Though the work begins in the next chapter, this achievement filled me with pride and renewed purpose.

This year was also one of personal strength. For the first time, I didn’t take a single holiday, instead staying in a relentless loop of work and growth. It was a grind I never thought I could endure, yet I emerged stronger than ever. I shed old beliefs, rewrote outdated narratives, and updated my vision of the world and myself.

But it wasn’t all work. I took a single trip to Atami—a short but soul-refreshing escape. It reminded me of the importance of stillness, of breathing deeply and reconnecting with the essence of who I am.

Throughout the year, I crossed paths with remarkable people—souls who left their mark on me with kindness, wisdom, and shared moments of laughter. Some memories were bittersweet, but every one of them helped shape me into who I am today.

2024 wasn’t just about achieving dreams; it was also about what came after. Standing at the peak of my goals, I realized that every summit is just the starting point for the next climb. I had been so focused on reaching this mountain that I hadn’t considered what came next. And so, I found myself resetting, searching for a new vision and purpose.

In this reflection, I revisited the pieces of myself I had set aside to move forward. I retrieved them, only to realize some no longer fit. Their time in my life was over, and letting go was both painful and liberating. Among those fragments, I searched for one thing I had loved most, only to learn that love isn’t about holding on—it’s about letting go. In that act of release, I found a love that didn’t demand compromise but offered freedom and fulfillment.

2024, you were more than a year—you were a teacher, a guide, and a friend. You taught me that life isn’t about carrying the weight of the past but about learning to walk lighter, to love deeper, and to dream even bigger.

As I stand here, ready to embrace the unknown of 2025, I carry with me the wisdom you’ve given me: that every ending is a new beginning, and every step forward is a testament to the strength I’ve gained. Thank you for everything, 2024. You will always hold a sacred place in my heart.

With unconditional love and gratitude,

Me

So let’s Cheers to 2024, the year that changed everything. 🥂♥️